The Memoir · Out now
Proof the loop can break.
In 2016 I woke up in a psychiatric hospital unable to remember my own name.
A memoir by Carrie Davidson, BSPH, BSN, RN
About the book
A story about the loop, and the way out.
The woman who signed the admission paperwork called herself Grace. She wasn't pretending.
Addicted to Trauma is the story of how a woman loses herself one small leaving at a time, and what it takes to find her way back.
It isn't a memoir about rock bottom. It is about the floors beneath the floor you thought was the bottom, and the work of building something that holds. That work took me years to understand and it eventually became the Conscious Creation Method, the framework I now teach.
For anyone who has ever mistaken chaos for love, busyness for healing, or someone else’s needs for their own. This book was written for you.
An excerpt
“The hallways were so white. That is what I remember most. The walls, the ceiling, the floor, the doors. White in a way that meant I wasn't in the world I came from anymore.”
I had been not-quite-Carrie for a very long time before I became Grace. This is the story of how that happened.
Out now
Read Addicted to Trauma.
Signed paperbacks ship from me. Hardcover and Kindle are on Amazon. If the book stays with you, a short review there helps it find the next reader who needs it.
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Common questions
What readers ask
What is Addicted to Trauma about?
Addicted to Trauma is Carrie Davidson’s memoir about trauma and addiction as one wound telling itself in two languages. It is the story of how she lost herself one small leaving at a time, became the patient in the white hallway, and found her way back. It is out now in paperback, hardcover, and Kindle.
Is Addicted to Trauma out yet?
Yes. You can order a signed paperback right here, shipped by me, or find the hardcover and Kindle editions on Amazon. If you read it and it stays with you, a short review on Amazon is one of the most helpful things a reader can do for a first book.
Is Addicted to Trauma about addiction or trauma?
Both, because they aren't separate problems. Trauma comes first and addiction is its result: the same wound telling itself in two different languages. The book traces that loop from the inside, without asking readers to choose which story counts.
Where can I buy Addicted to Trauma?
Signed copies come straight from me: $25 in the US with shipping included, or $25 plus $25 shipping internationally, and you can tell me who to sign it to at checkout. For hardcover or Kindle, the Amazon listing (opens in a new tab) has both. The same story arrives either way.
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